You're my destiny :')

You, yes you are. Last day when I knew you were lie to me it was really hurt and maybe you just could hear me cry :'(. I swore that my brain, my heart, my mind were thought mess about you, I didn't know why but that's I am, dear :( When I said that and that even those and those, you were angry, you made my grief became more and more until my tears were falling down. You were really into me dear, so that I could feel really aaahhh I don't know exactly to express it :( But that night also made us realize, both of us cried, both of us were regret of what we have done which made us hurt each other.
I told you that almost two weeks we haven't met yet, didn't you miss me? Miss everything? Miss our habit? :(, I miss you so badly but I had to hide it. I act arbitrarily because I deeply loved you, yeah deep but something that you knew was I was bad, my mind was fuckin' blowing mess, or I couldn't do what you have done when I did some mistakes. Feel like there's a steel knife in my windpipe, oh God! I couldn't breathe but I still fight while I could fight :'). High off of love, drunk from my hate, it's like I'm huffin' paint and I love it, the more I suffer. I suffocate and right before I'm about to drown, he resuscitates me :')
But you know because of that,our relationship had a better quality one although we can't be one for a while, now he and I just want to be calm, to think about us, to make sure about all. That's it and I agree of it, I'm always certain that he's my destiny because we are can not be apart though there are so many obstacles for us :)

 "only by loving someone with your whole sincerity, could you reach the best relationship ever" cc: M.S.G <3

:')